I Forgot

Funny thing about being on chemo again, I forget a lot.  I think it is a side effect of chemo that I will forget things.  I do not like this side effect though but it makes for some interesting conversations though!! (Trying to look at a positive here.)

For example, I might be in the middle of a conversation with someone and want to ask them if I can borrow their pen.  I might end up asking if I can borrow something and usually get that look of what something is it you want?! Or I will get a little flustered at myself and say never mind.  It is frustrating to have conversations like that.  If I do this with you, I am sorry.  If you want to have a little fun with it, please go ahead.  I usually have a good sense of humor so if in the middle of a conversation I just stop and look at like "What is it I wanted to tell you," feel free to have some fun with it if you want.  It might make for a nice little laugh for today!!

Also, I have had to write things down more.  I just cannot trust my brain to remember what to do.  Luckily, I have a little notebook at work that I write down important tasks in so I can just look at it and know I wrote something down, look in there to do it! Post-It Notes have been a big help as well.  The only problem with them, they seem to multiply on my desk.  I will have all kinds of them all over and about every evening before going home, I have to take the time to see what I wrote down, do I need it, did I e-mail it to whoever, did I call them back yet and then toss them out if I completed the task.  They are everywhere sometimes!!

So, if you are having a conversation with me, or another chemo patient, please be patient if we just stop during a sentence and look at you like I know what I want to say but cannot get it out.  It truly is a bit frustrating for me (I cannot speak for any other chemo patient though) and I just ask for a little patience.  And maybe a little humor?

Thanks for reading!!

Jenn